eeeeeh.... so i just spent the whole night readin over all of the entries in this journal... it was nice... heh, had a few nice flashbacks. too bad i didnt write more, like when i began goin out with somie and all that good stuff, and the fun i had lifeguarding in the summer, and what i do now in worldtone, but its alright.

i moved to a new journal, bloopdiary.com for now, and will abandon this.

maybe someday i ll return. until then.

=)

on a final note i ll just say that i m very content with my life and lots of fun things are happening, but i will regret this night tomorrow... oh well. it was worth it, i feel that way.

Wow, totally forgot about this thing. well, i feel like i need to write things outt. i m overwhelmed this semester, like, i feel myself plummeting down... midterm grades are in and i fucked up 3 out of 4 tests.... i need to shape up now or i m seriously fucked. i m also sick and miss my best friend dima. infact, i miss all my friends. its like they dissapeared with my free time. =/ well, in any case, i like my life now. i m always doing something and never have free time to fuck around, like waste it, time, so when i do, i actually enjoy it. =P its like i have created a small little world of my own, and there is just no room in there, but its snug and comfy for me and a few people. i like it. everythin is fine now. prodcutivity is a source of happiness after all. wats his face, edison; he was write in his little book of common people, some shit he wrote wen colonies just started popping up. i dont know why i rememebr this. yea. alright later lil journal!

it has come to my attention that... i m an idiot.

i give stuff away and forget who i gave it to, and this time in particular i gave an important sexual psychology book to someone, and i cant rememebr to who.

so, i m making this note now

i gave one of my texas instruments calculators to konny so he could use it in union

i am giving the second one to somie, so she could use it for calc in city tech

signed, ilia, september 5th

eh...

right now i m working as a lifeguard in a pool in sheeshead bay, i am going out with a wonderful girl, and will work in commerce bank when fall comes around. interview wednesday. i need 3 references.

i just came back from the beach, barely avoiding jjaill time. =)

so i met with my friend, long long friend, maria, and we went to coney island to walk around the boardwalk. eventually we get to the pier and just kind of standing, looking down at the water, when she says i should jump becuse she has a camera with her and it would make great footage. i hesitate for a while, because i think i m gonna get in trouble. then i was wondering, why the fuck not, whats the worst that could happen? haha so i get my balls up in a hand and went to the edge, while maria took her respectful place where the angle was good. i talked to some guy for a while, to see if i should do it, this is our convo:

-ey guy, wats up?
=just eatin my sandwich
-hey u think i ll get in trouble if i jump off?
=yea, probably get a ticket
-oh, ok.jump*
=guy starts scrweaming "oooooooooo shieeet"

lol

then i swam to the beach and got intercepted by the lifeguards, then the park police, and we went to look for my stuff and we of course didnt find it. they were gonna send me to jail but then figured its too much of a bother and let me go. =) now what else can i do today!?

hmm.. so i finished college, and just saw chronicles of narnia, which inspired me to actually make an effort and recover the long forgotten password for this website.

i just wanted to say that i am surprised that they chose the ugliest kids possible for a movie. is this like the "anti-albino-autism rase awareness" kind of audition they had there. jesus. so other than that the movie was cool. except they should have smoked some blunts, packed some for the road, and went into the closet. coming out of the closet was cool, its like they never went anywhere, and CON part 2 will be on a "sleepwalkers" motive, as the kids get pounded by the hungry professor who didnt have fresh kids meat in a couple of months.

i also made a super investment today: a bike. i bought it from a 70 or 80 something year old grandpa, who heard my add on the radio that i wanna buy a bike. nigga wanted 100 for it, but i was like nah bitch 60, and he didnt forget to mention the pimped out charges: a bambi bell attached to the steering wheel. of course, all arguments vanished and i raised it to 70. yep. good today, and tomorrow will be better!

today i saw something terrible: myself

apparently, i cant start doing my paper assignments because i KNOW its not due yet and i 'have some time'. its tormenting! i just... i haven't been doing anything, really, college-homework related, for the past 2 months or so, which now results in complete lack of organization. i kinda want to die.

ah. i m having an eventful day so far. first of all, i went to the gym, and that has made all the difference. i feel a lot better, spiritually, physically, and... time-spendingly.

so i get up at 7. go bnack to sleep till 7:12. was VERY surprised that i woke up so quick. i went to do my laundry, and made eggs and potatos for breakfast meanwhile. then dad gave me cool sunglasses. sat online a little and decided to make today the first day to waste some monmey on my credit card. yea. so i m just leaving, my sister calls me: 'hey wanna pic me up in 15 min? i m going to an interview"

i m like ok, come over there, she takes half hour. then goes to mom's job. then to take a stupid passport picture (looks bad on it). then on the fucking traain. then i swipe her in and there... an hour wasted doing stupid bullshit. fuck.

then i went to FYE and bought myself some crap, music mostly:

at the drive-in - like it
thrice - augh! horrible, stupid shit
arctic monkeys - noice!
snow patrol - yet to listen
violent femmes - know gonna like it, didnt open yet
and
Midnight express - its a DVD, i dunno, i just felt like wasting money. total: $68

then i went to gym and was giving myself no mercy, because i didnt go in a very long time. then i ran into ms. lengua. that was hot.

on the way back i got milk and thats about it so far.

college college.... i met a great new person. her name is jennifer nina, but i call her bambi. she is becoming a really good friend of mine + other.

i am really enjoy my life. i got a new job in Audio/Video center in Hunter thanks to stan. have to give in paper work tomorrow. a nice paycheck for 723 cleared yesterday.

thinking about buying new sheets for my bed. if anyone wants to make me feel special, my bed size is "full" and i d like it in purple; bright crazy purple.

hmm... play keyboard a lot more now. ah. i dont feel like there is enough time, and with that, enough motivation, in the world. i need alternative ways to catch up with life... but, which!? no. not drugs. they dont accelerate. no.

ok. back to work. update in another month. really did forget about this site.

whuachau! i got a new slick sick monitor! 19" flat LCD for... NOTHING!

i gave best buy my old pussy ass 15" and it was then 399 so they said get watever i want thats NOW 399 and there it was this nice samsung 19"! i grabbed that shit and ran out. i also bought myself nice white Pumas in modells for only 1 reason. i forgot to get shoes when i originally went to best buy, and they wouldnt let me roll around on skates, so there. hmm, wat else.

now is midterm week and a lot of tests. a rave coming up friday. gonna have lots of wild freaky fun i suppose. i redid my whole room. bed by the window now, and bought a new computer table, actually mom got it for me, a late birthday present.

also dad got me an electronic keyboard as a late new year present. yea. life is kewl. i still dont have a girlfriend, but i m alright, i got someone in mind.